Hope you didn't miss me!

My last week of school for 2007. Finals week is here! This is also performance week for choir. You'd think I'd be stressed out! No, not me. I am enjoying every moment. I'm studying for finals but not stressing because I'm more excited about it being over. I already know my average for my class and I'm happy with it. But if I do great on my finals I know I will get an A for the course. So I'm not worried. I guess I'm nervous about the concert tonight and Sunday. It is nerve racking what others think about your performance. But I know if I just enjoy myself and take time to hear the wonderful music, it can be healing. I am grateful something so simple can be such a wonderful gift to myself and others. Another precious gift, my little brother is graduating from Texas Wesleyan next week. I am fascinated that he has a accomplished a major milestone that affects his future in a positive way. Thank you God!

Ryan's Here!

Ryan Walters was born Saturday, November 11 at 3:01pm. He weighed 7 pounds and 3 oz and 20 inches long. He didn't cry much. Probably because I was there. I tend to have that effect on babies. But on a serious note, he is sooo adorable. He looks like Richard Gere in a good way. My sister is recovering well. She was able to joke and laugh immediately after delivery. The midwife did an exceptional job. I thank God everything turned out wonderful.

Today is my big brother's birthday. He has been a father figure to me since I was a child. He did a wonderful job helping my Mom all those years. I am very blessed to have him as a brother, and our nation is fortunate to have him as soldier and protector. He will always be a hero! (No matter how old he gets.)

Looking Forward to Our Future

Real Cars Running on Hydrogen, Really
9/25/2007
Automakers Working to Make Clean Fuel a Reality
By: Emily Hansen
One subject that really makes me nervous is climate change. I keep wondering what the world will be like for my children. Will it be dark and dingy because there’s so much pollution in the air that the light of the sun is blocked? Will people only wear gray because they’ve lost appreciation for color?
OK, maybe I’ve been watching too many movies, but some things will doubtless be different in the future. One thing that will have to change is the cars. Ethanol and hybrid vehicles are a reality on our roads today, but that’s just scratching the surface of the technology that will be the norm for our kids. One of the most promising alternative-fuel options out there is hydrogen fuel cells. I won’t bore you with the details about how fuel cells work, but the end result is a tailpipe that emits steam rather than stinky exhaust. Seem like crazy talk? Well, hold on to your garage-door openers, ladies, a fuel cell vehicle could be in your future.
Before the end of this year, GM will roll out Project Driveway, which is a program that will deliver 100 Chevy Equinox fuel cell vehicles to homes like yours and mine for real families to test. GM is still taking applications for the program, but there is a catch: You have to live in Southern California to participate. Why? Because there are hydrogen refueling stations there, and therein lies the greatest drawback to fuel cells: Until the infrastructure to deliver that fuel is available on a much wider basis, most of us won’t be able to drive these cars.
Still, you have to start somewhere, and I’d like to give kudos to all the manufacturers out there working on this super-clean alternative to gasoline. Several other automakers, including BMW and Honda, are also exploring hydrogen options, and I look forward to seeing the results of all this real-world testing. Let’s hope these projects will ignite the market forces and bring alternative fuel infrastructure to each of our hometowns. It matters to me, and it definitely matters to my children.

I look forward to the future and the scientists of better technology. This information gives me peace of mind of what my childrens and grandchildrens future holds.

I have been booked with readings all week. I have put off studying due to my hectic schedule. But I chose to stay devoted to what makes me happy. I also received a phone call and caught up with a family friend. It was fun catching up. She is an expert on receiving readings from all kinds of psychics, mediums, and tarot readers. She called me to validate a few predictions from readings she received from me months ago. I love to talk to her because we share and compare information. She reassures and uplifts me every time we talk. I hope to see her at our next gathering.

All who read this please pray for me so that I can work some study time in my schedule before Saturday's test. So far I have made 2 B's and 1 C. I am hoping and praying for the best grade. And I have also have a baby shower to throw for Saturday as well. Then Sunday, a choir performance. I am a busy mama!

(The pic above reminds me of my friend Jennifer. She is a Halloween fanatic.)

Close Call

About 6 something (an hour or so after dinner) my son starts to microwave a cup of noodles. After a few minutes he comes running out of the kitchen with his hands over his throat and mouth. Startled, I yelled what the heck! He said gasped, "microwave". I go to the kitchen and I see the microwave sparking, the microwave door was open with some heavy dark smoke coming out. I yell at the kids to Go away, then I went straight to the microwave to stop the sparking. Just a couple of steps toward the microwave, and I gasped and almost passed out. It felt like that harsh smoke went right into my lungs. I was gasping for air and wanted to vomit. I told myself that I couldn't pass out or my kids would freak out. So I went up to the microwave PRAYING that I'd have the strength to unplug it. I couldn't see, the smoke filled my eyes and started to burn and water. I went to living room to gasp for air, but that didn't do much good because I felt like I inhaled more smoke. So I ran to the porch and blew out really hard, then I took a great big breath in and went back into the house, ran to the kitchen and unplugged the microwave. It felt like it took all of my energy and breathe. I found the strength to go outside (as light headed as I was) with burning eyes to run back outside and catch my breath, and cough alot. I opened up the windows and the door to get some air circulated through the house. But it didn't feel or smell like the fumes wanted to leave. So I grabbed my heavy microwave and ran it outside.
Here it is almost 3 hours later. My house stinks. The kids have there fans on and luckily no smell in any of the bedrooms. I am thankful everyone is ok, everything survived, except the microwave.
Its time to say my prayers, express my gratitude, and recover with sleep.

Welcome, Welcome!

I am excited to know that one of my predictions from the beginning of the year have been validated. I will be an aunt again! I told my sister when she was pregnant that she will not be alone, and I had a strong intuition that my brother would have another. I love to be right about these things! Usually, you can predict many things of other people but when it comes to your family it is challenging to be accurate of these things. I have been wrong of more than half of the time when it comes to predicting baby's gender, until a couple of years ago. Since 2004 I have been accurate of gender. I see baby blankets in my mind's eye. For my sister, I saw baby blue. And I told her I thought it would be a boy. The same for my niece, MeiLing, pink blanket. I hope I continue to stay on this winning streak to friends and family. I believe there are some things you aren't meant to know, because I believe its important to be suprised in life. I hope my brother has a girl! But that is just wishful thinking. I can't stand to see yellow blankets! That means God wants me to be suprised.
I don't think its over. There will be another family pregnancy or delivery for 2008 - 2009. I think its a toss up between a sibling and a cousin. Whoever gets pregnant first, the other will immediately follow.

Thank you God!!

I had a wonderful today! After the few hours I worked, I went to spend time with MeiLing in the hospital. She had her tube taken out and was wonderful the whole time I held her...a few hours! I changed her twice, feed her, and played with her. She was the healthiest child in the whole hospital, and now she is back at home! I am so grateful for her quick recovery. I can't wait to see her again this weekend.
(Mei at the Meditation garden admiring the beauty. Taken by grandma at morningramble.blogspot.com)

She's Here!!

I have been blessed with an AWESOME vehicle, my new Honda Pilot. A 2007 3rd row seating with all the luxury. The only thing it doesn't have which I have requested, no leather seats. I am not a fan of leather at all so I am thankful of such a blessed vehicle. My husband, got us a great deal ($4,000 of the sale price plus a low interest rate.) He gots skillz!
I thank God for all that I have and all that he continues to bless me with. My children also took time to give thanks. I am fortunate to have a family full of gratitude.

Release, Let Go, Welcome the New

According to Kaballah, we have entered the New Year. According to Muslim Teachings, the season of Ramadan is upon us. According to Pagan/Wiccan Studies, we are entering Samhain. According to Catholicism we are in the Age of Jubilee. All this is to say that we are entering a time of global apology and renewal for the upcoming New Year. Now is the time to prepare for the changes that are around us.

We are being called upon to:

1. Get Rid of the Trash that clutters our life whether it be Physical Trash, Emotional Trash, or Spiritual Trash. Trash dulls our senses and leaves us unable to contact our Higher Energies.We can do this with RAP classes, Spiritual Resiliency Coaching, Yoga Classes, Meditation studies and physical looking at Feng Shui and Vasta Vistu (ways to clear our physical space).

2. As we move through this year, we are being called to enter into a cooperative age of selfless service where each of us takes our responsibility to "Tikkun Olum" – Repairing the World.

3. This is a time to Purge our "stuff" that just doesn't have a place in our lives any longer. Simple affirmations will not totally eliminate those drives. RAP work and other similar type of work that goes into that level of depth will assist in the shift of perspective that is being called for in this New Age.

4. This is a time that your resistances may come to the foreground. This is a time when many will have increasing issues and troubles that become a center of life's growth. Therefore;

5. This may be a time to schedule a Retreat or other way to take a break from life and look deeply within in order to make spiritual-emotional and mystical ways to move forward into the New Age.

I think its time now that our universe chooses to live life with LOVE the way life is intended to be, no matter what race or religion. I really believe the future for mankind will be peaceful when we choose to accept and respect others for who they are. I believe our future holds cleaner air and a cleaner environment. I am making a difference now by practicing acceptance of self, learning to forgive others and things that no longer serve me. I take time to let others know I care about them by unconditional love. I take time to pray for others, and meditate on joy and peace. I am an example to others by recycling, promoting and using earth friendly products, and picking up litter that is in my path. I choose to make a difference, and I believe that is contagious!

(Art above is by John Wagner at artbyjohnpwagner.com; 1-5 written by Dr. J. Arkow of Global Mystics, with some edits and conclusion by me.)

A Week Later

I can't believe a week has passed. I feel like I just blinked. I have been studying for lab test for Saturday. My next test will be the following Saturday. Three school days of back to back testing! I hope I will do better with each test. I have my book open all the time, at work, at home, and even in bed. I will leave it open on my bed so when its time to lie down, I will continue to absorb, memorize, and try to dream into my conscious, so that its in my head. I will eventually be done with the semester, but right now it feels so far away. If I focus on Thanksgiving and Christmas it will help time go by faster for me. I will be so glad when its all said and done!

The day is almost here, my cousin's quinceanera. Saturday is the big day, and my girls are really excited. My son, not so much. I will do my best to be fully prepared for the reception. I will not attend the mass do to Saturday school and a major test, that I have been studying hard for. I hope by some miracle we are able to leave class at 11:00 but that is unlikely.
My oldest daughter said she wants a quince when she is of age. I know that day is approaching fast. Time flys... it is important to make everyday count. Celebrate life daily!

Clubin

It has been along time since I hit up downtown. I will make a promise to myself to go out for next month. There is usually alot going on in October. I'd like to see a band and maybe drink, dance, and sing alittle. I have never been drunk enough to do Karoake but maybe one day I will, drunk or sober. It would definetely have to be with a lively crowd, and close friends. And the song would definetely be a song that is easy to sing, but I wouldn't do it alone. I'm not that courageous.

So much for thinking.... back to studying.

Study Time

How do full time working moms find the time to study? I feel like I have alot on my plate. I have my first test coming up this week and I am stressing. I do make time for prayer and visualization, so I think that will help me some. I am also learning a thing or two about photographic memory. Or at least I am reading up on it. Oh how my life would be so much simpler if I had photographic memory as a gift.
Well, I will end this blog now so that I can go back to study time.

Free Spirit!

I saw the movie Flicka for the first time last night. It is a little on the girly side but I loved it. It was about all the things I love, horses, being a daddy's girl, spirit connection, searching for joy, and being free. And the scenery is breathtaking. This movie is definitely a "must see" if you like movies about spirit and following your heart.

Speaking of spirit. I had a crazy dream a few days ago. I remember a voice talking to me, it said, "notice the similarities your daughter has with *****." They said a name but I couldn't remember what they said, I only remember she looked like she couldve been my grandmother's twin, only younger. I forgot all about it. And then a couple of days later, late afternoon, my oldest daughter was singing (like she was performing), when the song was over she talked about how she loved to dance and perform. For some reason it hit me, I remembered the dream. I thought how the woman in the dream was so much like my own daughter. As if it was a strong connection with the dream and the message I received from it. I kept a mental note, and just stayed in wonder.
Last night, I received a phone call from my mom about 11 pm. (That is way past my mom's bedtime so I was suprised she was awake.)
I told her about my dream and asked if there was any woman who had identical features of grandma, only youthful looking, and seemed to be a beautiful free spirit, who liked to sing and dance. She said she had a sister who passed away at a young age, who used to sing on the radio, and she loved to dance. She said they looked like they couldve been twins. We were stunned. My mom said its funny you mention her because this past week your Tia (aunt) found a picture of her as a child and she looks just like your nephew. Her name was Nelly and no one has mentioned her in years until now, And now your mentioning her too. I asked my mom what she thinks the message is. She said she thinks she's just letting us know she is watching over us. My personal opinion, I think she is making her presence known. As if she is reminding us even though she is not with us, she is here in spirit, and we are still connected. I now feel like I know who Nelly is, because my daughter is just like her.

Thank God Its Friday!

I haven't yet got used to working 5 days a week. Although I work full time hours I flex my schedule to 3-4 days. I have been doing 5 days a week since school started for my kids, so that I am able to drop them off and pick them up myself. I am already burnt out. The funny thing is, a few days ago a educated spiritual coach and teacher emailed me. She asked me if we could do a reading exchange. I was more than delighted. I gave her the reading first and she was inspired, revived, and thankful. I received my reading today, she picked up on my stress from school, work, and home. She said I needed to go back to setting my priorities according to my heart's desire. She even picked up on my doubts about Nursing, and going forth with counsel. The message was, I will succeed with my ventures, and to go forth with advising, in all aspects. I knew exactly what she was talking about. Most of my clients have been very educated people, doctors, lawyers, nurses, and even a director of a school. I was impressed when she mentioned I advised professionals, and I will continue. And in return, receive the information and continue to meet the right people to move forward with my education and learning experience.

(This pic is of my top priorities. Taken on a road trip to Louisiana in August 2007.)

I woke up this morning on the wrong side of bed. I was devoted to changing my mood. But I still came dragging into work. I dreaded dealing with machine difficulties from the day before. As always, I centered myself and asked (my angels) for help. I called the rep for the machine and got a real live person on the phone, unlike the day before, just leaving messages. He helped troubleshoot the problem and now all is well. I had to cancel a few appointments yesterday due to these problems. I have a full schedule today and I am fortunate to have everything up and running again. I gave thanks and settled in my office. I started to read my favorite blog. And to my suprise found the sweetest picture of MeiLing, reading. She sure does recover quickly! This pic will keep a smile on my face all day.

(Pic taken my MeiLing grandmother at http://www.morningramble.blogspot.com/ )

International Angel Day

Today is my grandma's birthday. I have no idea how old she is. She looks very youthful, beautiful, and has a great figure. She is very different from other grandmas. She is like the graceful movie star of the family. Once upon a time she was a singer and a dancer. I haven't heard her sing but I know she never gave up dancing. She is so talented, full of faith, and prays for everyone in the family daily. She is commited to God more than any other person I know, and I know alot of spiritual people. Though, she was never the typical grandma to me, she has always been admired by all the young girls in the family. I am very thankful to have the most beautiful grandmother in the world.

Today is special for numerous reasons. It is International Angel Day. I hope everyone takes time to thank their angels for what they do. Their job is never ending, and they will never give up on doing God's work. We are so blessed for what God has given us. I continue to be full of gratitude. Tomorrow is 9-11. We should not think about what we have lost, For All is Well! We should think about what we have gained as a country. Strength, support of our neighbors, and prayer support for all of mankind.

Sunday Gratitude

MeiLing had her 3rd (unexpected) surgery last night. From what I'm told this should be the last one for awhile. I am so thankful that everything is working in her favor. She is so strong. When I saw her this afternoon, I kissed Sleeping Beauty... and yes, her eyes opened then she closed them... back to slumber. As if she said a quick hello with her dosed off blink. She still looks like a princess. I wonder what she is thinking. As me and my mom talked about MeiLing, she did the eye movements again. She knows we were talking about her. But wherever she was in her deep slumber was to wonderful to come out of. I bet she was doing some astral travel. Visting loved ones and getting more encouragement from her angelic family, talking to God and giving thanks for the incredibly strong parents she has been blessed with.

Let us pray...

God thank you for sweet MeiLing. She has been a blessing to all who know her. Her strengh gives us much to live up too when we feel like giving up. Her smile make us smile, Her every move makes us feel excited to play, her beauty shows us your perfection, I appreciate how her sweet eyes give us wisdom, Thank you God for her fast recovery.

(The pics above where taken by her grandmother during a visit in the ICU. Witness for yourself how strong a 4 month old baby can be. For more MeiLing pics... www.morningramble.blogspot.com )

MeiLings Recovery

I started another season of choir. Ohh, how good it feels to reunite with my spiritual friends. Up on the director's prayer board is MeiLings name. Before practice we pray for all on the prayer list. MeiLing has been on the prayer board since birth. I love that I am part of a group that supports me and my spirituality.

Sweet MeiLing is recovering wonderfully from yesterday's non invasive surgery. I cant wait to see her. She has been in the prayers of thousands. In my opinion, MeiLing is a naturally tough. And as she gets older she will be even stronger. I can see her climbing trees with scatches on her legs. I can see her playing hide and seek with her family. She will be so typically normal that others would never know that she has been in and out of hospital in her earlier years. I can see her in the future giving hope to other families, becoming a healer and teacher herself. God bless this blessed happy child!

(The pic above is the happy MeiLing. Pic taken my her grandma at

http://www.morningramble.blogspot.com/ )

Work, Work, Work

I have been super busy at work. Since Friday we have been slammed by many patients coming in for contractions or ruptured membranes (water broke). Here it is Sunday and I am here at work wishing I was at church celebrating life with my church family. I love my job but this weekend has left me desiring for ME time. When I feel like work is stressing me out, I continually keep in mind my patients best interest and their feelings of excitement about their pregnancy. I honor those feelings and emotions and do my best to make their visit as pleasant and as comfortable as possible. For whats to come afterwards isn't so pleasant. As convienant as epidurals are, it too has the minor side effects of itching. So a patient's comfort and safety is a top priority to me.

This evening I will visit with an old Marine friend who will be leaving to Iraq next week. I will enjoy the rest of the weekend I have left. I have my Labor Day off this year so I will relax. Thank You God!!

Next Vacation

Here it is midweek and I am already longing for the next vacation. I am hoping to do something special for our 10 year anniversary. I admire the people I know who take a vacation every year. I hope our family can do that all the time in the near future. I would love to experience the sights, sounds, and foreign food. The only sunset I have seen outside of Texas was in Laguna Beach. Talk about a vacation. The people we met all seemed to be spiritual, wealthy, and lovers of life. Being there looked just like the movies only better. I loved how everyone there seemed to be open minded. Typical conversations were about following your path and understanding life experiences. I felt at home there. I didn't see a church on every corner like I see here, but the presence of God was still there. Like the beach, the skyline, dolphins, and beautiful people who seemed happy and serene.

Sweet Memories

I miss my relatives from Thailand. Especially, my sweet aunt who favored me always wanted the best for me. She desired success for my future. She is a professor at a prestige college in Thailand. I remember when I talked to her on the phone, and told her I was pregnant (as a teen) she sighed... oh no! I knew she was disappointed but she quickly recovered and made the comment of I was strong and I can still finish school. Though I didn't believe her, I agreed and said I would finish school. As we continue to grow and learn who we are, I look back on the sweet memories of promises and affirmations I said I would do. To be true to yourself is to accomplish things you know you can or cannot do. As I remember the good memories, I realized I have already taken such steps to be who I wanted to be as a kid. I wanted to be a nurse or doctor, a counselor, a Sunday school teacher, a nun, a princess who marries the prince, a mother, and a leader in church.
Its funny, I am going to school for nursing and ministry. I have done the Sunday school teacher and Chaplaincy program. I have a wonderful husband who calls me the queen of the house, and really smart kids (smart ass too). I have the experience of most of these except the degree, and acting as a church leader. I do plan to get a Ph.D in the long run. I just chose to take the really long way. So in honor of my Aunt from Thailand, I pray for your happiness and say Thank You for how you have loved me.
(This pic is of me as a 4 yr old celebrating with my Aunt receiving her Doctrine degree.)

Letting Go

I took the day off to see the children off to their first day back to school. I was both excited and saddened at the same time. I spent the day keeping myself busy to keep my mind off of things. I have been more open with who I am to others, but some do not accept you as you are or who you are to become. I know the challenges I face are part of my growth but when it comes to saying goodbye its never really easy. I hope my children are better able to handle and tolerate issues of acceptance better than I was. I hope they will always accept others for who they are and I hope they will not change for others (unless its to better themselves). For me, staying in the spiritual closet caused me weight gain and depression. So when I finally moved forward I had to decide if being accepted by others was more important than being true to myself. I am glad I have come forward. I have met so many great spiritual teachers, witnessed miracles, and learned from spiritual leaders of our time. And I look forward to meeting more, as I continue to go forth and help others.
I pray... "God, thank you for supporting me and guiding me to be a great helper to others. I work for You to serve others, and You continue to reward me well. Please give my children a million times more then You have given me, I understand the importance of tithing, and I love nothing more than to give to others who are in need. Thank you for teaching me the importance of unconditional love, nonjudgement, and continue to bestow blessings for those who come and go from my life. Amen."

Sunday Gratitude

I missed church today because I slept in. Instead of hitting the snooze button, I accidently turned off the alarm. Oops. I felt guilty for not going to church, so I started to pray and I felt serenity. During meditation, the message I received was "get more sleep". That is so true! All last week I was getting at least 5-6 hours of sleep. If this goes on much longer it may possibly affect my health. I'm too young to have issues. I am already being tested for my thyroid. But I know everything will be great if I take good care of myself.

Sunday's Gratitude: I am grateful for my "true" spiritual friends who believe in me and support me. Friends who I can be myself with, the ones that never let me down, and who never give up on pushing me back up when I fall. Though I have many friends, I only have a handful of the "true spiritual " supportive friends. And for those friends I pray...

"Thank you God for my dear friends who never give up on me. I ask that my friends be blessed with prosperity, youthfulness, romance, protection, laughter, peace and joy. I ask that they have the strength and courage to follow their dreams, and may their children have even better. I know that every prayer is answered and I ask that you answer my prayer now. Amen." -Thank you God.

(The pic above is a Peace Garden with a statue of St.Francis. A saint who had a special connection with animals and was a devoted friend.)

A Child's Happiness

I went to work early this morning feeling like I didn't get enough sleep.

I made it through a busy morning with a smile on my face. Lovely couples coming into the hospital excited about possibly delivering their new baby today. It made me reminese about how excited I was each time I was expecting. I thought to myself, I would love to have more children if I were rich. Right now, I want my children to have all the things I never had. A variety of foods, a devoted father, name brand shoes, truthful spiritual teachings, and more importantly, a good education! I have sacrificied 2/3 of all the income I have earned from the past few years to pay tuition for schools I believed were the best for their growth. And as I have grown from Roman Catholic to Liberal Catholic, my children have also moved from strict Catholic school to Charter school. I used to pray and pray that I wanted the best for my children, and I have received an answer... their happiness. When I look back, I saw my children being taught how to be "right", to fit in, and to go by the book in the correct order. From point A to point B, not going forth to take a chance on something that could be daring (or what would others think.) But now, they have opinions, they sing, they dance, they read novels that expand their minds, they laugh at their mistakes, and they are realizing that their uniqueness is what makes them who they are.

I am amazed that these children who have big dreams and have surpassed many accomplishments being as young as they are, came through me... sent from Heaven by God. I say this from the bottom of my heart, Thank You God for you are indeed a Miracle worker! I know all that I have now in this moment is more than enough for me to enjoy life. My children's happiness is an important necessity in this lifetime. I am truly rich!

Make the best memories you possibly can for your children. Let go of the small stuff, let them be who they are, and ENJOY their presence.

(The pic above represents an answered prayer. It represents miracles no matter how small, are part of something bigger. God wants us to be happy and live the life He gave us. The same way we wish for our own children to be happy with this life.)

Summer's Over?

Today begins the last weekend of the summer (for me). We have had a wonderful summer! Alot of pool parties, fun birthday parties, Independence Day, my brothers' birthdays, summer weddings, gambling in Shreveport, reuniting with childhood friends, taking a Spanish course, kids in Karate class, MeiLing's baptismal, Romance Parties, spending quality time with my nieces, nephews, and "baby" cousins, and the best celebration of the summer, my sister returns home safely from Iraq. I am so joyous and blessed!

After school starts our next big family event will be in September. A quince for my baby cousin. Everytime I look at her I still see a 10 year old! And my oldest is eleven! I am amazed. I really did (and still do)enjoy every bit of time being a mom. I am blessed with the sweetest memories... with so much more coming my way!

(The pic above is a great looking family celebrating their July 4th together, and coincidently, all share summer birthdays.)

The challenge of TRUST

Well the week is almost over. And lately, I have been getting plenty of signs to go outside. I know I should take time out for some fresh air now and again but I just haven't found the time. I have been so focused on work and I have been distancing myself from drama. It seems like alot of my friends are going through some tough times. So I just hope the best for them and pray that maybe some day soon they will come to their senses and make positive changes. My life has been really peaceful for the past few years. I remember when my life was all about the drama... and I thought drama was important! Time has taught me so much, and today I still continue to learn and grow. I think my toughest challenge right now is Trust. I am learning to trust were I am being guided. Lately, the message has been to move forward. I am learning to release people and things that are no longer good for my higher self. What a challenge! How do you let go of things you have always known? It does hurt me inside to know that some of the people I care about choose to stay in the same disturbing situations. And I don't understand how they continue to live this way when they are role models to others. I guess it comes down to this... it's in God's hands, not mine! But sometimes, its hard to step back and watch people make mistakes. I have to just let them live their lives (with my mouth shut). I have not the kind of person to put my beliefs on others. I do believe everyone's faith is the correct one. But my challenge of just "accepting" is tough! Until, I learn to perfect this, I will keep my distance from drama. I just have to practice to learn Trust!
Dear God, help me to Trust. Amen.

(I love this pic above from Hayhouse. I admire this picture because it represents Trust in God (in my opinion). This angel fully trusts her Creator.)

Surgery Cancelled

My sweet goddaughter was scheduled to have her first surgery this morning. I came into work thinking I'd go visit her in the hospital during lunch since its across the street. I called her mother (my sis) before I left and she said her surgery was cancelled and has not been rescheduled yet. I wonder why? My sis has the impression it was the doc's mistake for not scheduling a preop before hand. Should this be true, I am grateful it has been cancelled. When preparing for any kind of surgery the staff and surgeon should be fully prepared! Especially when it comes to my goddaughter. When I leave work to go home I know my children will be excited when I tell them. I just have to trust that God know what He's doing. I am so good good at providing comfort, guidance, and advice to friends, coworkers, and acquaintances BUT when it concerns me or my family I easily worry, feel insecure with not having control of the situation, and question my faith. Today I will not do that! I know we all have our angels to help us get through tough situations. I know everyone has a purpose or mission to fulfill, including sweet babies like my goddaughter. So I will seek comfort in knowing that her Entourage of Angels are with her giving her comfort to get through this next challenge.

(I love the pic above. It gives me reassurance that everything is in Divine Order and we are never alone...especially children.)

School Supplies

I am so grateful that my children attend a charter school. I feel fortunate that my children are receiving an awesome education. And the kids are much happier at charter school, before charter school it was Catholic school. Now that my youngest starts kindergarten this will be a new experience for her. She too, just finished a preschool program at a Catholic school, which in my opinion is the best Catholic school in the DFW area, St.George. Before that, I was very happy when my older kids were in different Catholic school (until my son was diagnosed with ADHD which can be a problem for the school's reputation if my son didn't take his prescibed medication). (I will not say what Catholic school that was, because if you can't say something nice then don't say nothing at all.) I refused to put my son on Ridilin so I asked for guidance. Answered prayers sent me a wonderful charter school for them to attend, what a blessing! We have a week left before school starts and we are almost ready except for the one thing I dread the most... buying school supplies. Back when my kids were in Catholic school all we did was pay a fee and the school supplies were taking care of. But its not like that for the charter school... the list is scary. For just one child I will have to go to 3 different stores just met the needs of the supply list. I am overwhelmed with the list for 3 kids, one in kindergarten, one in the 5th grade, and one for the 6th grade. Yikes! Last year I spent $150 on school supplies. I was hoping it wouldn't be anymore than that but this list is alot scarier that last years list. God help me.
(The pic above is of my youngest 5yr old who Simpsonized herself.)
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2007-2008

Its another new school year for the kids including myself. Time to get back into the prereqs sciences that are mandatory for my degree. I have to be balanced and disciplined for home, school, and work. We will take it one semester at a time. My children are excited about this school year, and my youngest starts kindergarten. I am grateful I have accomplished so many feats at the young age of 29. Last year, I was guided to start journaling and I put it off. Today, I continue to get the same message from the universe to start journaling... so here I am.

(The pic above is a beautiful angel, to me represents, a prayer that I have asked for continued magical blessings to be bestowed upon me and my family.)