Farewell 2011

This seemed like the most challenging year for me.  Lost my grandpa, took on more of a work load at the office, finally moved into my remodeled old childhood home, and more than anything, was a support person to those who lost their closest loved ones or experienced harsh break ups.  Being there just to listen or being a shoulder to cry on, for me, is difficult.  I have a hard time seeing loved ones in pain.  I do not mourn well either.  Its my least favorite human emotion.  I cry and suffer just like everyone else but I can't hold on to those emotions for too long.  I guess I'm just not built that way, or maybe I haven't had the nervous break down everyone experiences once or twice in their life.  I am hopeful, a well-wisher to others, and more than anything, celebrate as much as possible.  I'm a firm beliver in constant change.  As much as I would love things to stay the same, its not possible.  Life is about changing, nothing ever stays the same.
Now, 2012 is on the horizon and the predictions are negative and positive.  With all the earth changes going on and a lighter feel in the atmosphere its challenging when you don't know what to expect.  Well, I will tell you what I expect.  I expect to be present every day to whatever comes my way.  Whether it be challenges, celebrations, prayers, prayers, prayers, meditating, or giving more of me, I will be present.  I will continue to do my best to be a better me.  I will continue to help you and love you and do my best even if your my enemy.  I will continue to pray, visualize, and meditate on family, friends, and loved ones to be in perfect health, increased wealth, exciting romance, and joyous givers.  I hope those who only give learn how to receive.  I hope those who only receive learn to experience the joy of giving and change their hearts to a new way of living.  To those reading this, here is to you, a victorious 2012.  May you release what no longer serves you and find hope and spirit of the greater good.  May all of your past hurts and scars be healed and replaced with a strength that serves you when you need it most.  May you experience peace, more abundance, better health, and a giving heart.  I see this for you, see this for yourselves and those you love.
Goodbye 2011, we move forward with healing hearts, taking with us the love that was left for us to experience. 

Making the Best of Drama

This month has started with some excitement.  Began with a party, was at the right place at the right time for a friend, then ended the night in a text battle of someone telling me to stay outta their business. The text battle continued until the next day.  Umm excuse me, you made this my business when you hurt innocent people with your lies, excuses, and selfishness.  Then I realized, I have been in this position before.  Years ago I had a BFF go through a difficult divorce.  Still nearing the end of that relationship, he continued with his lies and false hope.  So when their end was upon us I went ghetto on him.  Went out of my way to tell him off, threatening him of how his life would become nothing after everything he did to hurt my dear friend and their child.  I told him God was going to take good care of him.  I knew it was the truth, but I was also one of those people who thought I would help God out by helping the revenge he deserved, get off to a good start.  I was so naive.  That was years ago and today I'm much wiser and I continue to seek universal knowledge.  One of the the many TRUTHS I've learned is, "what you wish for others is what you unconsciously request for your own life." Things did not go so well for the poor ex husband but I also noticed things weren't going so great for me either.  It seemed I was always in constant struggle with money, and never understood why.  Another truth I found later that rang true for me was, "the more debt you have in your life is caused by the unforgiveness and grudges you hold."  This new truth has been a long process of understanding.  I saw how it changed my life.  I witnessed more of God's favor and answered prayers became reality for me and for others I would hold in prayer.  So when I found myself in the same position again, I vowed to do it differently.  This pattern will not repeat itself.  The current friend who is going through this similiar problem with a guy, I'm going to call Mr. Temporary, sent me a text to stay out of their business or else.  He tried to go ghetto on me then he ended it with, "I won."  I was not going to stoop to his level.  I was going to do it the right way.  Speak only God's truth.  My replies were honest, straight to the point, no threats, only facts.  I compared my life of God's favor and his life of less than to reassure him, no honey, "I won!  You can't handle the truth, your weak.  I don't know why you would think for one second I would back down, you don't scare me.  God has my back, always has, always will." His replies just confirmed he was fearful of my facts.  He was scared of the truth he created for himself.  Every reply I sent was with love, confidence, and God's protective energy.  Then I sarcastically, ended it with, "maybe if you can hold a job for a year, maybe, I will keep you in my prayers."  I didn't have to go there but it just felt right.  He then ends up apologizing, twice then a third time for the final text.  I forgave him after the first apology.  I know Mr.Temporary's pain was just as real as the pain my friend was experiencing.  There issues are none of my business.  It's only my business when God sends me somewhere to intervene, and my inner voice stands up for what is right.  I am thankful I have powerful people in my life, family, friends, gurus, and church support (I call angels).  I am not powerful because of them, I am powerful because God sent them in my life to be my support system.  I am grateful everyday.  Always stand up for the greater good, speak your truth, and God will send powerful teachers to be your support system in this life.  Deep inside, I feel their relationship is done and will never be what it was.  But only God knows how that will play out.  I send them my prayers and hope the best for them whatever they decide.  In all honesty, it will take God himself to help make that relationship work.

November, Spirit of Gratitude

Whew!  Two months have gone by and now we are left with the last two months of the year.  September has brought me challenges and October was celebration of overcoming those challenges.  November brings the spirit of gratitude. 
These last few weeks have been hard.  I have close friends going through separation or divorce.   Just listening to their challenges reminds me of their strengths.  Some are just wishing that the year would be over already.  I do understand but I do not feel the same.  I will continue to enjoy the last two months.  I do believe better things are coming to them so I encourage them to be open to receiving.  Prayers are golden, so this month I send you gold.   May you receive them with open arms. 
For this month, I posted a Blessing for a Marriage.  May this remind you of the kind of relationship God has in store for you right now or in your new relationship.   

May your marriage bring you all the exquisite excitements a marriage should bring, and may life grant you also patience, tolerance and understanding.
May you always need one another—not so much to fill your emptiness as to help you to know your fullness.
A mountain needs a valley to be complete; the valley does not make the mountain less, but more; so let it be with you and you.
May you need one another, but not out of weakness.
May you want one another, but not out of lack.
May you entice one another, but not compel one another.
May you succeed in all important ways with one another,
and not fail in the little graces.
May you look for things to praise, often say “I love you!” and take no notice of small faults.
If you have quarrels that push you apart,
may both of you hope to have good sense enough to take the first step back.
May you enter into mystery which is the awareness of one another's presence—No more physical than spiritual, warm and near when you are side by side,
And warm and near when you are in separate rooms or even distance cities.
May you have happiness, and may you find it making one another happy.
May you have love, and may you find it loving one another!
Thank you, God, for Your presence here with us and Your blessing on this marriage.
Amen
Poem by James Dillet Freeman

Blessed, Balanced, and Abundant

I am grateful for my God, my family, the friends who are family, my other friends, and coworkers.  I am grateful for my homes, the homes that  protect my loved ones, and our amazing vehicles that get us to our destination.  I am not the richest person but I am very RICH indeed.  I have love and I experience hugs and kisses everyday.  This month I will focus on my blessings.  I will eat more greens this month because I love the body that houses my spirit.  In this month of August, I will pray the rosary in honor of Mother Mary.  She continues to pray for my family and Jesus continues to keep his promises to me.  I have been fortunate enough to tithe all of my income for the last two years, and I feel wonderful to be able to give back to God.  God has promised to pay all debts in full and I have faith in His promise.  This month I will focus on blessing those who curse me.  And I send abundance angels to those who pray for me and continue to wish great things for me.  May you look past the hot weather or whatever complaints or challenges you have this month.  Remember your truth.  You were built to handle all God sends you.  Then give thanks to God, for you will have learned to get to the next level... if you choose to go there.  I do hope you decide to go there.   
The photo above represents my prayers heard.  The photo of baby Jesus and Mother Mary represent the love and nuture they have for me. 
Affirm today:  "I gratefully accept health, wealth, and happiness that God has promised unto me."

July 2011

Since the year 2000, on the last week of every year I go into deep prayer and meditation wishing the best for the next year.  I make one or two main goals and celebrate the goals I have accomplished at the end of year.  Last year during my prayer and meditation for 2011, I received a intuitive message that made me cry.  The message was I was going to lose someone close to me, as well as those close to me would too, would lose someone close to them.  I realized that was definetely going to be a big challenge for me.  For me to lose someone or even being the support for someone else would be a challenge.  I haven't lost anyone close to me since the Wedgewood shooting.  And before that, I lost an old friend I went to school with.  But I have never lost anyone close to me in my family.  One of my best friends lost her client she had seen weekly in the month of January.  I lost my grandpa on my birthday in March.  My niece lost her grandfather on her birthday in June.  Another friend of mine lost her father this past week.  It has definetely been a challenging year for those close to me.  In my heart I know those we have lost are in beautiful place full of love and happiness.  But that doesn't mean we don't have pain or crave their physical presence to hug them.  I do not forget the many blessings I am fortunate to have celebrated this year.  A family quince for my daughter and niece in June. Next weekend I celebrate my only son who turns 14.  And I will be blessed to celebrate the birth of my niece who is expected to be here this summer.  Life goes on.  Keep celebrating life.  And we take those we have loved in our hearts, carry them with us until it is our time to reunite with them.   We have five months left of this year, lets us make the best of 2011!

The card above symbolizes the best of life after passing.  Its validation that those who have moved on are alive and well.  In the past, I have read a spiritual book on death.  It states, "Here on earth we come together to mourn a loss.  But in Heaven, there is a big celebration of reuniting. For their precious loved one has returned home from their journey."

Self-Appreciation, "See the Angel Within and Love Yourself More"

I have been struggling with weight loss since I was a teen.  Back then, I thought I was fat and looking back at my pictures I was really healthy, active, and I looked great.  I was very critical of myself.  I have moved past emotional childhood trauma with forgivesness.  I have been the same plus size for the past 10 years with my weight flucuating.  Recently, I noticed my current size pants starting to fit me snug.  Then I realized I have never been happy with my body.  I am fortunate and in good health.  I should be praising my body everyday for everything I can do with it, like walking, stretching, and dancing.  Why haven't I been appreciating everything that my body does for me?  Have I been too vain on my outside appearance and not focusing on giving praise for the great body that I have.  Today, I make this vow.  I will do my best to love the skin I'm in.  This maybe a long life journey but I want to focus on more important things then my size.  If I find myself eating better, becoming more active, or slimmer, it will be naturally and not because of a diet fad.  I will do my best to remember I'm beautiful the way I am.  I will do my best to see myself perfect the way God, my kids, and my husband see's me.  I am not giving myself a reason to make unhealthy choices, I'm just giving myself permission to not be critical of myself.  

Summertime, June 1st

The New Moon is a time for new beginnings to recharge goals or set new ones. What will the first of June bring for you? Do you have an action plan, affirmations, or special prayers that you are hoping to manifest this summer?
This picture is an angel card that represents Summertime. Rest assured that you are not alone, you have God's help, and guidance. This summer we will still experience the unpredictable storms, tornados, and floods, that we are all too familiar with in Texas. Lets do our best to stay positive during these trying times. Worry will help no one. Pray and send love and angels to all those who are recovering from loss of loved ones or of sentimental material things. We all have our unique lessons to learn, obstacles to overcome, and challenges to face. Though it may seem scary, with God on your side, your fears will subside and you will instead experience peace.
My personal goal for the month of June is to practice using the Emotional Scale to continue to manifest more prosperity and joy in my life.  The challenge is to stay on the "Feeling" of level 1 - 7, for faster manifestation. Avoid 8 - 22 as much as you possible.  Remember we are human so at times its unavoidable.  But take the challenge anyway.  Your angels will support you, call on them. 

The Emotional Guidance Scale 
1. Joy/Appreciation/Empowered/Freedom/Love
2. Passion
3. Enthusiasm/Eagerness/Happiness
4. Positive Expectation/Belief
5. Optimism
6. Hopefulness
7. Contentment
8. Boredom
9. Pessimism
10. Frustration/Irritation/Impatience
11. Overwhelmed
12. Disappointment
13. Doubt
14. Worry
15. Blame
16. Discouragement
17. Anger
18. Revenge
19. Hatred/Rage
20. Jealousy
21. Insecurity/Guilt/Unworthiness
22. Fear/Grief/Depression/Despair/Powerlessness
(From the book “Ask and It is Given”, pg. 114)

May 29 Wedding Anniversary

Today I celebrate one of two anniversaries. Today is my wedding anniversary. I am thankful for the life I have shared with Chris. I appreciate his devotion and faithfulness of our relationship. We have been together for richer and much poorer. I appreciate the friends and family who have supported our relationship and I even appreciate the naysayers and those who have tried to keep us apart. You have made us stronger.

We had all kinds of drama go on my wedding day and through it all we still stood our ground, and celebrated our love. And to add to that drama. Recently, I found out that on my wedding day my estranged father-in-law told Chris not to marry me because it was a big mistake and he can still get out of the situation. I was fuming with anger when I found out. What a d***! Chris said it made him mad and he just ignored him after that. Then Chris told me he didn't care what his dad thought, he wasn't around for most of his life, and he thought it was better if he wasn't involved with our kids. Then I felt bad cause I know for him as his son, he must of been emotionally disturbed by his own past, like I was mine. I'm glad I never went out my way to be cool with his dad. But I'm not mad anymore. I am very fortunate things turned out the way they did. Even through difficult times from both our childhoods we have learned from our father's mistakes and for that I'm grateful. Our kids have never asked about him so that makes me feel like they have more than enough paternal love from our family and friends. Especially now, with so many supportive uncles, those marrying in Mike, Andrew, Rick, (and have helped us financially at times) and our best friends who have played uncles to my kids since birth and still visit often (Bryan, John D, Lorenzo, Zaragoza). We are blessed. Thanks guys!

Chris is wonderful. He makes me laugh everyday, still to this day. He is handsome, kind hearted, generous, affectionate, and loving. We have our sharing loving moments much more than we have our mad moments. I know people change in relationships but so far we have continued to grow together. I hope we continue to grow together. Thank you so much to those who have supported us. Bless you!

"Where there is Love, there is Life" -Mahatma Gandhi

Feel the Light and Follow It

This message is especially to my dear friend. You know who you are. Your the strongest woman I know right now. In the past you've expressed to me how everything you asked for was manifesting. It seemed all of the things around you were coming into play and you felt confident about your life. Until... you realized you really didn't know what you wanted. Then you figured you knew what was best for your relationship and wished he would move on. Then he did. The shock is that it happened too soon. Way to soon. Ego is all up in your business again until you took it upon yourself to focus on what you wanted for the both of you, happiness. I'm proud of you. I saw this picture, I thought of you, said a prayer for you, and sent angels to you. I hope you see what I see. A beautiful fairy who is focused on the light in her hands because she is in awe on how fasinating that light is. That fairy is you. I hope you can see that light in him. Remember your light is brighter with many colors and you have the freedom to fly. Your learning to accept good into your life. Feel it. Embrace it. Now manifest your positive desires.

Love you girl.

"You have only to believe if you wish to achieve" -Hot Rod (love that movie)

Be Brave

It seems that people who are dear to me are going through tough times. Really tough. Separation, divorce, and employment cuts. When I say to them it will get better I can feel their doubt. What else can I do to help them?? I visualize a better outcome. Then I pray, meditate, and send them angels. God hears my prayers. Sometimes, I don't like the answer I get but I know God's plan is better than my own. When I feel like my hands are tied trying to help someone, I go back and remember all the things that have happened in my favor. Especially my favorite story, so far.

A few years ago, I saw my best friend Lety go through a depressing break up from her cheating ex-husband who left her as a single mother raising a daughter. To me, at that time she felt like a loss cause going down hill and I couldn't snap her out of her depression. She started hanging out with the wrong crowd partying to take the pain away.

I remember praying for her over and over, even going into deep meditative prayer, and then I started praying the rosary. With each prayer and bead, I would affirm, feel, and believe God was sending someone special to her. I prayed for a kind, attractive, faithful, Catholic gentleman to come into her life to heal her broken heart. After my prayers, I felt confident and assured. The feeling was loving and joyful, it was really awesome experience.

So then days later, my sister is craving Chinese and says she will treat me lunch and give me money she owed me if I pick her up, so I invited Lety to come along. After lunch, my sister gives me a lotto ticket to cash in and says here is the money I owe you. Ugh! God works in mysteries ways. Out of annoyance I stopped at the nearest convienient store by my old house to cash in the ticket, and that's where it happened.

When I'm walking out the store my sis and Lety are signaling me to hurry and get into the car. Lety is turning all red cause the guy parked in the car a couple spaces over is checking her out. She and my sister told me to hall ass outta there and I'm all confused. So as the responsible driver, I just gun it. We head to my sister's place wondering if he is going to follow. Does he follow us? Yes, until he until he gets a red light. The girls are explaining to me while I'm speeding away that Lety whistled and/or hollered at him in a "you look good" kinda way. So thats why he was giving her the stare down probably wondering if she was the one trying to holla at him. When we reached my sister's house we thought we had lost him. So after all the laughter I drop sis off and now I'm on my way to drop off my Lety.

Long story longer, we see mystery man drive right by us heading north as we are heading south. When I finally get to Lety's house she is all excited, giggly, and red to the face. I told her to get into her mom's car and look to see if he is still out there looking for her. She doubts me but is too jumpy to stay home and just chill. After a quick goodbye, I go home and tell my husband how crazy Lety is hollerin at strangers. Maybe an hour later or so, Lety calls me and tells me her mom asked her to run an errand. Taking advantage of the situation she goes for a cruise to the same street she last saw mystery man and there he was, cruising the street searching for her.

Seven wonderful years later, he is a wonderful father to her daughter and together they have 2 kids, as well as a family dog (that looks like a rat), and a new beautiful home.

Thank you Lety for saying yes that day to lunch. Thank you sis, for being whiny about your cravings, and troubling me to cash that lotto ticket. Thank you God for that kind, faithful, attractive Catholic gentleman you put in our path that day! It was divine intervention.

To my dear friends going through hardships, I am praying for you. I am wishing you the best and I am sending you angels. Are you open to receiving? Are you listening? Are you taking action to the guidance God is giving you? God will always help you and support you. Your part of the lesson is learning to accept help, take action, and move forward. Keep ya head up!

Abundance Meditation

I keep my mind and thoughts off "this world" and I place my entire focus on God within as the only cause of my prosperity. I acknowledge the inner presence as the only activity in my financial affairs, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith and the principal of abundance in action within me.

-John Randolph Price

The Abundance Book