Farewell 2011

This seemed like the most challenging year for me.  Lost my grandpa, took on more of a work load at the office, finally moved into my remodeled old childhood home, and more than anything, was a support person to those who lost their closest loved ones or experienced harsh break ups.  Being there just to listen or being a shoulder to cry on, for me, is difficult.  I have a hard time seeing loved ones in pain.  I do not mourn well either.  Its my least favorite human emotion.  I cry and suffer just like everyone else but I can't hold on to those emotions for too long.  I guess I'm just not built that way, or maybe I haven't had the nervous break down everyone experiences once or twice in their life.  I am hopeful, a well-wisher to others, and more than anything, celebrate as much as possible.  I'm a firm beliver in constant change.  As much as I would love things to stay the same, its not possible.  Life is about changing, nothing ever stays the same.
Now, 2012 is on the horizon and the predictions are negative and positive.  With all the earth changes going on and a lighter feel in the atmosphere its challenging when you don't know what to expect.  Well, I will tell you what I expect.  I expect to be present every day to whatever comes my way.  Whether it be challenges, celebrations, prayers, prayers, prayers, meditating, or giving more of me, I will be present.  I will continue to do my best to be a better me.  I will continue to help you and love you and do my best even if your my enemy.  I will continue to pray, visualize, and meditate on family, friends, and loved ones to be in perfect health, increased wealth, exciting romance, and joyous givers.  I hope those who only give learn how to receive.  I hope those who only receive learn to experience the joy of giving and change their hearts to a new way of living.  To those reading this, here is to you, a victorious 2012.  May you release what no longer serves you and find hope and spirit of the greater good.  May all of your past hurts and scars be healed and replaced with a strength that serves you when you need it most.  May you experience peace, more abundance, better health, and a giving heart.  I see this for you, see this for yourselves and those you love.
Goodbye 2011, we move forward with healing hearts, taking with us the love that was left for us to experience. 

Making the Best of Drama

This month has started with some excitement.  Began with a party, was at the right place at the right time for a friend, then ended the night in a text battle of someone telling me to stay outta their business. The text battle continued until the next day.  Umm excuse me, you made this my business when you hurt innocent people with your lies, excuses, and selfishness.  Then I realized, I have been in this position before.  Years ago I had a BFF go through a difficult divorce.  Still nearing the end of that relationship, he continued with his lies and false hope.  So when their end was upon us I went ghetto on him.  Went out of my way to tell him off, threatening him of how his life would become nothing after everything he did to hurt my dear friend and their child.  I told him God was going to take good care of him.  I knew it was the truth, but I was also one of those people who thought I would help God out by helping the revenge he deserved, get off to a good start.  I was so naive.  That was years ago and today I'm much wiser and I continue to seek universal knowledge.  One of the the many TRUTHS I've learned is, "what you wish for others is what you unconsciously request for your own life." Things did not go so well for the poor ex husband but I also noticed things weren't going so great for me either.  It seemed I was always in constant struggle with money, and never understood why.  Another truth I found later that rang true for me was, "the more debt you have in your life is caused by the unforgiveness and grudges you hold."  This new truth has been a long process of understanding.  I saw how it changed my life.  I witnessed more of God's favor and answered prayers became reality for me and for others I would hold in prayer.  So when I found myself in the same position again, I vowed to do it differently.  This pattern will not repeat itself.  The current friend who is going through this similiar problem with a guy, I'm going to call Mr. Temporary, sent me a text to stay out of their business or else.  He tried to go ghetto on me then he ended it with, "I won."  I was not going to stoop to his level.  I was going to do it the right way.  Speak only God's truth.  My replies were honest, straight to the point, no threats, only facts.  I compared my life of God's favor and his life of less than to reassure him, no honey, "I won!  You can't handle the truth, your weak.  I don't know why you would think for one second I would back down, you don't scare me.  God has my back, always has, always will." His replies just confirmed he was fearful of my facts.  He was scared of the truth he created for himself.  Every reply I sent was with love, confidence, and God's protective energy.  Then I sarcastically, ended it with, "maybe if you can hold a job for a year, maybe, I will keep you in my prayers."  I didn't have to go there but it just felt right.  He then ends up apologizing, twice then a third time for the final text.  I forgave him after the first apology.  I know Mr.Temporary's pain was just as real as the pain my friend was experiencing.  There issues are none of my business.  It's only my business when God sends me somewhere to intervene, and my inner voice stands up for what is right.  I am thankful I have powerful people in my life, family, friends, gurus, and church support (I call angels).  I am not powerful because of them, I am powerful because God sent them in my life to be my support system.  I am grateful everyday.  Always stand up for the greater good, speak your truth, and God will send powerful teachers to be your support system in this life.  Deep inside, I feel their relationship is done and will never be what it was.  But only God knows how that will play out.  I send them my prayers and hope the best for them whatever they decide.  In all honesty, it will take God himself to help make that relationship work.